The pursuit of happiness

Just saw the movie and I must say I´m sad, angry, and most of all, disappointed. That story reminded me of my own current situation, and I didn’t like what I saw. What is the point of living in a deeply sick society, as Krishnamurti said, when nobody cares for you or your problems, where nothing you do seems to be useful or purposeful? What´s the point of having dreams, if all the system is designed to crush them all?

The fact that made me want to puke, was the realization that almost all my world and the one of those around me is a complete fake. People worries about the most stupid things and nobody feels the pain of others. You only have to comply. Society drags you into its endless vortex of destruction, consumerism, hate, rage, fear and no respect for anyone or anything.

Many are saying that a change is going to come soon. But how soon? Are we going to endure all the tests and problems associated with the fact of wanting to get out of the system? Do we have enough power or resources? Or are we going to be left behind, like trash?

The most fearful feeling is the one having to do with not knowing what to do, or what direction to go to. It´s like being blind and deprived of all meaningful information to make a choice. What a horrible situation is it.

A paradox: knowing lots of things but none of them seem to be the appropriate to solve the current problems. So we keep searching and searching, hoping for some miracle solution that isn´t to arrive anytime soon, because that solution doesn’t exist.

I heard some time ago that when the time comes, perhaps is not worth it to be alive anymore, since the world can become a even more fearful place to live. That relieved me a lot, since one of my biggest worries was to survive at all costs. Perhaps the next chapter is even better, but who knows. As usual, time will tell (or not)…