Personal Thoughs

No worries

I just read this and thought it was worth to post it as a reminder of all of my false fears and stupidity. It´s a fleeting moment in the life of Steve Jobs, when he was still young with no money nor plans:

We had very little money and no foreseeable prospects. One evening after we had splurged on dinner and a movie, we walked back to our car to discover a $25 parking ticket. I just turned inside out with despair, but Steve did not seem to care. He had a deep well of patience when it came to discouragements. We drove to the ocean near Crissy Field in San Francisco and walked out onto the beach to see the sunset, where I began talking about money worries. He gave me a long, exasperated look, reached into his pockets and took the few last coins and dollars we had and threw them into the ocean. All of them.

The pursuit of happiness

Just saw the movie and I must say I´m sad, angry, and most of all, disappointed. That story reminded me of my own current situation, and I didn’t like what I saw. What is the point of living in a deeply sick society, as Krishnamurti said, when nobody cares for you or your problems, where nothing you do seems to be useful or purposeful? What´s the point of having dreams, if all the system is designed to crush them all?

The fact that made me want to puke, was the realization that almost all my world and the one of those around me is a complete fake. People worries about the most stupid things and nobody feels the pain of others. You only have to comply. Society drags you into its endless vortex of destruction, consumerism, hate, rage, fear and no respect for anyone or anything.

Many are saying that a change is going to come soon. But how soon? Are we going to endure all the tests and problems associated with the fact of wanting to get out of the system? Do we have enough power or resources? Or are we going to be left behind, like trash?

The most fearful feeling is the one having to do with not knowing what to do, or what direction to go to. It´s like being blind and deprived of all meaningful information to make a choice. What a horrible situation is it.

A paradox: knowing lots of things but none of them seem to be the appropriate to solve the current problems. So we keep searching and searching, hoping for some miracle solution that isn´t to arrive anytime soon, because that solution doesn’t exist.

I heard some time ago that when the time comes, perhaps is not worth it to be alive anymore, since the world can become a even more fearful place to live. That relieved me a lot, since one of my biggest worries was to survive at all costs. Perhaps the next chapter is even better, but who knows. As usual, time will tell (or not)…

Powerful Daemons

Sometimes is difficult to tame those daemons that have something to do with our more primal instincts: sex, rage or survival. These days I´ve been recalling a book I read many years ago, where the author described a society based on a closed-circuit life, this is, birth, life and dead inside a huge building, without ever going outdoors. People there were heavily divided by their abilities. The most successful ones lived higher, the others, lower. But, all of them had one thing in common, aside the fact of living in the same place: they could have sex with all women in the building, but hidden social rules dictated that the “lower ones” should stay there.

What if we could do the same now? Have sex or share wealth with everyone? What could change? How our lives will be? Different? the same? better? worse? It´s very difficult to control our most basic instincts just to comply with rules created by a group of people that is not here anymore. Violence and poverty are the results of this kind of ideas, envy and hatred are also side-effects. Perhaps our mindsets need to be changed now. The old rules don´t seem to apply anymore. People need different perspectives, because our society is completely different and is evolving fast. We cannot rely on old power schemes anymore. But, inertia and control of the masses by a few are almost impossible hurdles to take. Nonetheless, I believe a big change is approaching, and we´d better be prepared for it, since the world as we know it, is going to chance forever…