Fearful Blues

It happens from time to time. Everything seems to be going smoothly and then, a dark and long shadow appears out of nowhere (well, it comes from the same place almost all the times), to haunt me yet again. I used to think that as long as I did well and the years just passed, accumulating experience, the shadow was less likely to return. I was wrong again. Perhaps the only thing left to do is to just accept its existence and deal with it. Mostly, my mind is the one that makes the shadow alive, so the issue is less with the shadow and more with my mind. Oh my mind, my dear monkey mind. The bright side is to recognize I´m now aware of this happening and my fears are not so powerful as before. What will happen? I don´t really know and despite all my anxiety related to the shadow, I´m starting to care less and less, slowly but steady.