Crashing down

What happens when the main tenets of your life start to crumble? When your beliefs and safety measures just disappear in a matter of seconds? The other day someone told me I was just wanting for things to stay the same forever, without risks and deviations… I politely replied yes and no… Deep down in a childish way of thinking, my brain hopes for smooth and slow changes. Since they inevitable, this is the most you can hope for. Silly me. Life is brutal and does not care if you are ready or not to receive what comes when it comes. The words “soft” and “careful” don’t make any sense in the grand scheme of things. These are just ways for us, weak and fearful humans, to try and cope with the increasing uncertainty and associated pain and discomfort that seems to characterize our “modern” way of living. You can repeat many times “I got it, I understand”, nonetheless, the existence has many forms of surprising you when you less expect it. “Let go or be dragged” seems to be a good way to deal with it, nonetheless, it’s easier said than done. You keep making the same mistakes and sticking to the same old strange behaviors over and over again, trying to learn without any chances of success.

Just a word is enough to make everything go south. We have lost our ability of critical thinking and we just had relinquished our control over our emotions and decisions to a bunch of strangers willing to make you feel better in exchange of a hefty amount of money or energy, without thinking about the chaos their advice is generating in their unsuspecting clients. Is anybody listening or paying attention? Nope. Humans just want a quick relief to keep going to nowhere. Interesting times…