Today is one of those horrible days in which I feel completely alone, useless and bored. That dark and dense feeling of emptiness, the incapacity of fitting in. So, I stumbled upon this. It´s weird and produces a strange sensation to find people that stores so many secrets, and see that they´re brave enough to share them, anonymously, though. It´s a kind of relief to see that I´m not the only one not willing to share those dark things that lurk in my mind.
I’ve been following (with more or less interest), all the things that have surrounded the Pope´s death. It was really curious to see many world politic and religious leaders meeting at St. Peter Square, shaking hands and sharing a little chat like they were old friends. As usual, this is only diplomatic stuff, nobody really cares about their neighbors, and everything will remain the same after a couple of days: war, religious differences and so on. This Pope made a huge effort to reconcile different and in occasions, hostile and belligerent attitudes. All of his work will vanish as soon as the last pilgrim leaves Rome… Sad but true. Many say that John Paul II helped polish people to fight against the communist regime, and other give him credit for tearing down the Berlin Wall. Those were significant accomplishments for his time, but what about the present? Will he help us with all our current problems (Terrorism, Islamic Threats and so on?). Time will tell if his life and death server an specific purpose. Let´s try not to forget his work to preserve freedom and to help poor people fast.
Human beings don´t stop to amaze me (but not in the best way, I must admit), specially when I realize that many of us simply don´t show any trace of respect or “fair behavior” with each other… I deeply hate the people that, for example, park their cars using two or more (!) parking places. Parking is getting more and more difficult here in Europe these days, (I´m starting to believe that buying a car is the people´s ultimate goal in their lives, or something), and those morons only think in themselves. It does not represent an extra effort to spend a little more time parking in the appropriate way, just to allow other persons to have a suitable place for their cars, too… But when I´m about to act and try to cope with this, I find projects like the Guedelon Castle that reminds me about that not everyone in this planet behaves badly…
Look at you for a moment. What do you see? I think I know the answer: you probably punish yourself too hard. “I see worries, that I’m ugly/fat/tall/short, problems, not enough money”. Have you stopped only once to think that you are surrounded by people with lots of trouble, sickness, that do drugs, smoke, trapped in alcoholism, workaholic, with very dark and dramatic stories behind, and they do continue to run their lives in the way they can? I don’t think so. Many of us keep complaining about that our lives are too boring or flat, but this is not true. We are really lucky, but (this is like a noir-humour joke) almost always we need that life hits us hard to realize that. Stop being stupid and start living your life without waiting for “that” to happen. Remember, tomorrow never comes…
Yes, thanks to a dear friend, I finally made it to the net. It’s been a hard way, since my knowledge in these matters is really limited, but I wanted to open my mind to the world, to say many things that I think that should be out there, and not only for myself. Let’s see what happens. Please enjoy…