The Costanza Syndrome

Well, it seems the episode is ending now and things will go back to “normal” (Please note the quotes, they are important). What will happen from now on is anybody’s guess. The only certain thing is reality as I knew it is definitely over. The way we relate to each other will completely change after what has happened. I suppose this is inevitable. The shock and way to see things has left a big mark on both of us. The illusion of balance and equilibrium was blown up to smithereens in one single moment. Every thing that was built carefully and with the best intent is simply gone now. The centers are now shifted for good. And to add insult to injury, it seems our life and myself are “part of the problem”.

Sometime ago I watched certain Seinfeld episode where George starts dating a female inmate from a minimum security prison. He’s delighted that he’s the one in control, since he can visit her but she can’t do the same. Everything goes well until she escapes and pops up at George’s apartment. Things start to go downhill from there until she’s busted and the relationship ends. Somehow I am feeling in a similar situation. Right now this will be like living with a stranger and starting from scratch but sincerely I don’t know if I want or if I can to do that. As usual, time will tell…