Void

Yet another week. More complaining, more tiredness, more and more of the same things. Sometimes, life is like an old movie, moving slowly and without sound to nowhere. I’ve recently discovered that many of my life certainties are not there anymore. I try to start over, to correct my past mistakes, but I simply can’t find the required energy to do so. Perhaps it’s time to seek some help. The bad part is that when I did this in the past, I ended feeling worse, and all my problems remained more or less the same. No, I’m wrong: this helped me to find more problems that were hidden in my head long time ago. So now I have more things to worry about.

Perhaps it’s time to make a radical turn in my life. Perhaps it’s time to start living my life in the way I believe I should, and not like other people say I must. But it’s difficult to fight with old memories, fear, past orders and values. It would be great if we can just “format” our heads and have a fresh start, with new knowledge, new ideas, new motivation, less prejudices. But, at this time, this is only possible in our dreams or some movies…